Things have been crazy the last 2 months which has resulted in a lack of posts by me.
This craziness has included:
- Moving into a new place with Kev.
- Unpacking and combining 2 apartments into 1. (I never realized how much work this is!)
- My sister visiting with my niece, nephew, and aunt.
- Completing a Diamond Dash- a scavenger hunt around Jacksonville via text message with the winning team getting a $15,000 diamond Ritani ring. (We got 16th out of 300...so close!)
- Easter.
- Trying to maintain our social lives as much as possible in our life transition.
- And finally, we finished up our crossfit nutrition challenge in the middle of March.
I won the women's division with everyone noticing and commenting on how small I had gotten. It felt good, I ended the challenge being 8 lbs away from my overall goal and ideal weight. I did feel a little weaker in my workouts though which I guess is common when losing weight because you do lose some muscle as well as body fat.
Regretfully after the challenge, Kev and I had a paleo train wreck. What was supposed to just be a small celebration allowing ourselves to eat those foods that we still miss sometimes turned into a month and a half of gluttony. We ate whatever we wanted, whenever we wanted. It's sickening thinking about it really. There were a few half attempts in that time to get back on the wagon with a comment here or there like "Ok, after this ice cream is gone, no more bad stuff. We going to get back on track." Then the next day would bring a craving for a cadbury creme egg or a bowl of cereal.
Having someone else with you in this journey has its good and bad points. Usually I'm not one influenced by peer pressure all too often, but Kev's not the same as all my other friends. He holds this special power over me and looking into his eyes can get me to do anything. I'm not sure who has the worst sweet tooth, him or me. But when he has a craving for ice cream I can rarely say no; and Kev always has cravings for ice cream! Having someone else means support, motivation, and understanding. When we're being good, he's great at motivating and keeping me on track, it's just getting us both on track that's hard. And if one of us isn't on track then the other isn't on track.
During our month and a half paleo hiatus, I gained back all the weight I lost during the challenge and then some, saw my crossfit performance fall, and my acne got bad. I was feeling bad about myself overall and refused to step on the scale to see the damage I had done to myself. Kev was feeling the same way. We knew it had to stop. On Monday we finally recommitted ourselves and I stepped back on the scale to get the final damage tally. We have been good all week with no cheats and I'm already feeling much better! My performance in workouts feels better and my acne is clearing up!
I knew eventually I might fall from the wagon/have a wreck, I'm only human. From now on, we may have A cheat here and there, but no more train wrecks. I have learned a lesson on how to drive this train and stay on track because the consequences of not doing so are a bloody mess.
