Kev and I been stuck in one of those ruts where every time you do something to improve your life and get ahead, you get knocked back down. I understand this happens to everyone, it's happening to a couple of my friends right now. Sometimes it's over quick and sometimes it's long and drawn out. I had been impatient for Kev and I to move in together as we had a plan, a plan to pay off debt and get our lives going in the right direction, to move forward together towards our dreams and goals. But this could not happen until we moved in together. We moved in together in April and it seems since then it's been one thing after another...nothing really huge, but enough to not let us get ahead. Every time we cut our expenses to pay more towards debt, another expense was added like his car, my doctor bill, something. Through it Kev stayed positive (he really is amazing) and taking it one day at a time. We worked together to come up with a new plan and it seems things are finally falling into place.
The biggest change in our luck is Kev getting a new/second job in which he has the potential to earn much more than he makes now and it looks to be a good start to getting us ahead. That's followed by a lot of little things here and there like winning an Amazon gift card, finding the crossfit shoes I want on sale, beating the Underwood Jewelers' Team in the Never Quit 5k for a gift card to their store, and so on. But I'm starting realize, maybe nothing really has changed. Maybe we're still having the same luck we've always had. Maybe it's my perspective that's changed. I could have looked at all of those good things in a negative way. Now Kevin may not go back to school for his master's like he wanted, or it was only a $10 Amazon gift card, or the shoes weren't the color I really wanted, or the fact that I ran one of my worst 5ks in a long time.
Sometimes in life, nothing has changed at all except our perspective and sometimes that's all we need to make our life complete. We go through life so unhappy because we don't have that, or this went wrong today, but why? Really when we stop and look at our lives, are they really that bad? We have a roof over our head, food in our bellies, a paycheck coming in and so many more luxuries that many others don't. And most of all, we have each other. Honestly, I feel the reason my perspective has changed is because of Kevin. He was always there day in and day out staying so positive and that began to rub off on me. It is infectious. So if you're down then reach out to your happy-go-lucky, positive friends; while they can be really damn annoying at first, their postivity and look at life can start to rub off on you. Try taking whatever negative thoughts you're having and think about how it can actually be a good thing for you. And remember, most of the time when something bad happens, it's opening the door for something better. We may not see it now or right away, but be patient because honestly things always work out just the way they were supposed to in the end. It may happen by taking a different path than you had planned and not the way you would have liked, but in the end, you'll get there. Look for the little lights in your dark tunnel.
So for today, and from now on, I will be the luckiest person I know. And honestly, with a boyfriend like Kevin, how can I not be?
“Life has taught us that love does not consist in gazing at each other, but in looking outward together in the same direction." - Antoine de Saint-Exupery

